This week has been insane and I haven't had time to update where I could think of anything to say. I feel bad as I know there is one special dude who reads this everyday. First off after I found my wallet the cards got her but the bank replaced the wrong card, which I didn't notice until I went to use it, and so I am without my main bank card, which meant I had to put my checks in my account that I never use. Ace has been going through snacks like no bodies business and I've been too exhausted to fight with her over it and to be honest mostly relieved that she's eating again. So I've had to buy groceries two more times then I'd planned because of this.

Then I had to do co-op last minute at preschool, and the kids got up at 3am that morning, FUUUUUUUUUUUUN. I've missed J every time he's been online because I'm trying to get all my loose ends tied up. Bell also fucked us over again this month (which is partially my fault and then they lied and made me think i could fix it, thankfully I don't trust them and called before I was totally screwed over). Over all the last week has been stupidly overwhelming.

Dragon Age, will contain spoilers

I'm a huge nerd and for the last few months I've had a raging nerd boner for Dragon Age. I beat it within a week of starting it back in March, which is a record for me, usually I take a month or so but this game had me staying up past my bedtime just to play I love it so much. Then I promptly made every race/class/gender combo I could and started playing through the opening areas, and the DLCs, oh the DLCs had me starting new games to play them through. Then the expansion came out and that was awesome too, I beat it in a few days and had nothing to do but go back to the original and start fumbling around with different plot options.

With J away and the recent announcement that DA:2 is coming out in March I couldn't believe how much I still wanted to do, like beat the game about 6 different ways at least. I think the thing I love the most about this game is every time you play it through you still get a different twist to your characters story. I played a Nobel human, so my characters personal story was one of revenge for her family. I focused on relations ships with only 3 of the NPCs in my party even leaving one to die in a village instead of saving him and bringing him with. So I got very little conversation from most of my party. The game has romantic side plots and I focused on Alister and once I secured his seat on the throne my character became her queen, we used dark magic so we'd survive killing the end boss. We made many changes for the better in our kingdom.

Your party also chats while you're running, so not only is your personal story and interactions different each play through you get to hear different NPC conversations depending on who comes out in the world with you. My first play through consisted on mostly groups with Shale (A golem and my tank), Wynne (a mage and my healer), myself a (duel weilding warrior), and Leiliana (a rogue, and an Archer). Sometimes I would take Alister as my tank. Shale mostly throws her weight around, but Alistair and Wynne have a lot of greatly funny talks, Wynne teases Alistair for sneaking peaks at your bum, Alister calls her old and she retorts with dirty old lady humor.

This time I played a mage, and I switched up my party a lot more, I made my entire crew my best friends. My character flirted romantically with a few party member before settling on Alister. I took Alistair as my main tank and off-specced Morragain my healer, I went back and forth between Ogren and Zeveran as my extra damage. No one in my party abandoned me or tried to kill me (at least not more then once). But being a Mage I couldn't become Queen, and Alistair broke it off with my character, I decided to do the big -dies to save everyone- ending. I admit when they did the memorial and what everyone else did after I died, I cried.

I'll admit this second play through was a three day whirlwind where the kids watched cartoons on my computer so I could have the TV (well when they wanted to watch cartoons at least). Last night the amount of time I'd been playing showed it's effects in my dreams (along with a nice shout out to Neverwhere which I'd just finished reading). I had a dream where I was protecting my parents house from the Darkspawn Blight. I was also an opener (like Door from Neverwhere). Alistair was helping me though sometimes he was J. My parents home was reverted to what it probably looked like in the 1800s when it was built. I found a saw edges sword that had magic and began using it to take out dark spawn 5 at a time. However I woke up before the blight was ended (and just as the fighter jets showed up oO).

Tonight I hope I sleep more and dream less.

real life has gotten in the way of this. Hopefully I can learn to stay on top of it better in the months to come. It's been hard to update as I've been going to bed shortly after the kids. Lyra has been waking at midnight for diaper changes and demanding to come to bed with me. Where she stares at me for an hour before going back to sleep.

This throws off our mornings because Ace usually comes in around 4/5am and sleeps until 7/8am and would happy to snuggle with Lyra and sleep like normal, this is unacceptable to Lyra though, so this leaves me up at 12am about every morning and only sleeping about 3 hours a night.

First day of school

Wednesday while coming home from grocery shopping I was talking to Ace about starting preschool. She was so excited until I explained it was just for her, Mommy and Lala were just going to drop her off and go home. She lost it, this explanation lead to walking the rest of the way home with a 3 year old attached to my leg kissing my butt and crying NOO MAMA YOU TOO, YOU SCHOOL TOO, PLEASE MAMA, SCHOOL YOU AND LALA PLEEASE. I distracted her with chocolate milk and some lunch, and spent the afternoon worrying about it.

Supper time rolled around she brought up school again, so I told her tomorrow morning we could pack her back pack and have breakfast and then we'd go to school, she was excited again and wanted to pack her back pack RIGHT NOW.

So we got up and did all the things I promised, we got dressed, took some pictures outside and walked to school. The only tear shed were over putting on her indoor shoes. She was the only tomboy in her class too, with her Mohawk hat, camo pants, and Harley shirt. The teacher opened the classroom door called for puzzles to be put away (and she did, she never does at home), and then zoom into the room and sitting in the circle without a goodbye or a look back, my kid.

I was late to pick her up, well sorta. I thought I was early so I was letting L run around a bit until I noticed the other parents coming out, oops. She did not want to leave, she ran to one of the teachers and yelled NO NO HOME ME STAY STAAAAAY. And cried the whole way home demanding to be carried. At one point I said "I guess I should have brought the wagon, and she said "yeah Mommy." In her "well duh mom" voice.

I should have mentioned last post we got the dolls from Here I am still really happy about them and they've lead to some hilarious comments out side "yes baby, 2 daddies, you guys have two daddies." Mom thinks J should record "Please don't throw me down the stairs"

Tonight my goal is to tidy the hell out of the house, and sort the laundry and have dishes ready to wash. Initially I planned to clean everything but I have a whole morning with only one kid so I might as well do dishes.

holy nuts.

The kids got their Daddy Dolls today, there has been much hugging and kissing and MY DADDY WHERE MY DADDY? And I've said "please don't throw Daddy down the stairs" at least 6 times.

I considered Live Blogging True Blood tonight, but I do not have the stamina for that. So I spent my normal Blog allotted time recounting tonights season ender for J before he went to work.

My current mission is to fold the rest of the laundry after moving a sprawled 3 year old from my bed and praying the 20 month old STAYS ASLEEP.

Yesterday was hectic, I gave up trying to clean when the second I turned my back the kids were wrecking things or fighting. Hair pulling out I am. I also tried to go to bed early (around 9:30/10) except Lyra woke up as I was crawling into bed, she was screaming and fighting. I changed her diaper and she tried to put it back on as I was getting a clean one out, she fought the clean one and cried NONONO. Then I tried to put her back to bed and she cried for Daddy, so I tried to let her sleep with me, which means she headbutted me, slapped at me and giggled and babbled for an hour before I put her in her own bed where she fell happily asleep.

Tonight my goal is folding and putting away clean laundry, tomorrow dishes. Again the kids were way too insane to get anything done.

Ace has been acting out a lot during the day. She hits and throws things when she doesn't get her way, my polite girl with please and thank yous just demands things that she knows full well she won't get and then hits me as if to prove that I should just give it to her. However she hasn't peed the bed at all.

Lyra however has been sweet and cuddly about as often as she's screaming at me. She wants a drink she screams, she wants a diaper change she screams, the tiniest thing does not go her way when she wants it, she screams. Aside from the cuddles this is normal but the lack of relief in the evening makes it exhausting.

I've been doing okay at keeping the house tidy. I bought paper plates to help keep dishes down (I got compostable ones) and I've been making myself do the dishes every second day.

However my wallet has been missing for three days and I've been so exhausted by the time the kids go to bed that I just don't have the energy to look. I'm going to set up the pank n play tomorrow for Lyra and put on Invader Zim, and He-Man to keep the kids entertained while I clean.

my wallet is still missing, it's not like I've even left the house where the hell folks.

The children were rabid beasts today, Ace was hitting, Lyra was biting, I tried to hide.

Today beat me up and made me it's bitch. My wallet is missing, like not even lost, missing, I've looked in on around and under everything in my house. I'm going to call Nancy when she gets home and see if maybe a wayward baby snuck it into her diaper bag. The missing wallet would not be such a big deal except my babysitter is not calling me back and I'm supposed to be at a pre school meeting tonight in an hour. Oh well it's pissing down rain anyway.

I feel sick, my head is pounding and I need snack/lunch groceries for the kids, the power has flickered twice now. I can't wait to go to bed and have this day over.

Today was a little rough. The kids were not incredibly bad, however Lyra does seem to be competing for the title of worlds angriest toddler. For the most part though, they were good, and Lyra took a nice long nap. However I've had a headache for two days now. Mostly it's just a barely there kind of annoying throb, but it got bad enough today that I had to pop some advil. I think a lot of it is from not having a proper computer chair, I ordered a stability ball to work out on and double as a computer chair, hopefully... my desk is pretty low so I'm hoping it works right.

Bah.

Tonight I will be lame about posting again. I am exhausted, Lyra was up and down all night and then up demanding a diaper change at 4am, going to bed early failed. I did finish all the crocheting I had to do but realized a few minutes ago that the post office is likely closed for the holiday so I won't get to ship until Tuesday. I sent the sitter a message to confirm for Tuesday but I haven't heard back from her. ACK!

I also feel like ass and stayed up to watch true blood only to find out that HERP DERP the finale is next week and it's just re-runs tonight.

Well I was just given what for, in regards to not updating yesterday. So I'm taking care to do so tonight.

Nancy and Maia came over today for a visit, we looked at Halloween costumes for Maia and I showed off the girls costumes. Lyra is being Spock and Ace is being Hit Girl, we'll be doing our Trick or Treating in Nova Scotia. We also watched the Disney Animated Alice in Wonderland.

I spent the afternoon writing while the girls indulged in an Invader Zim marathon. Aislyn is in love and asks for ZIM when I ask what she wants to watch. I am pleased.

I totally forgot to update last night, do I get a pass because I was actually working on my book? Lets go with yes.

Nancy and Maia plan to visit today which means at some point before they do I need to tackle the pile of laundry on the sofa.

Finally heard from J. He hasn't had time to call yet but he just woke up (it was around 5:30am there) and we got to chat on MSN and get up to date and it was nice. It will be nicer when he has actually internet and we can skype but right now that was a nice chat. And I booked my flight to NS and back which is now three months instead of two, my parents will be happy.

I was going to clean the hell out of everything tonight but really all I have left is dishes and laundry which I can really get done tomorrow, I let it get way too hot in her and I just can't make myself do it. I'm debating on working out or just going straight to a shower and try to beat the kids awake (and by that I mean wake before them, not beat them into a wakeful state) and workout before they get up. I did really well today, wasn't hungry and still have like 15pts left over. I can do this.

I'm finding it hard to care about cleaning the kitchen today. The kids hit destruction level 7 about an hour ago but kept it to dumping dinner on the floor. Pretty sure tonight I'm not going to work out but attempt to work out in the morning. Tonight I will fold laundry and crochet. That's the plan I'm sticking to now.